Friday, April 12, 2013

the hardest part is waiting

I m a normally patient person but I have no patience for surprises.

I read mysteries but spend my entire time speculating about the end. my husband gets mad about watching suspense movies because I keep guessing and inevitably get something right.

then how can I be patient every month from ovulation to period and wait.

I  dont

I analyze everything, I google five times a day whether this could be a symptom or not out how early it starts even though by now I have everything memorized.

I agonize every month just as I am this month. one more week and despite all hopes no chances are I m not pregnant yet I cannot stop hoping and tormenting myself

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